INSIDE OUT

In the recent past, I have been trying to introspect and identify the areas in my life which needs the touch of God s hand. In the process of doing so I identified certain areas where I was not acting in a Godly Way. My close circle of friends, relatives were constantly pointing out those areas because they were victimized by my abnormal behavior.

   



One day it so happened that I was sitting in front of my system in office and suddenly some kind of disturbance took over me. I felt a deep sense of sorrow, because I was unable to understand my behavior towards certain things which were sensitive to me. Now I knew that my behavior was wrong but I could not comprehend why.

The disturbance grew stronger and I started becoming restless and found difficult even to breathe. So I called one of my spiritual elder and I explained the things that I was go through. He asked me deep and sensitive questions to understand the root cause of the problem. All of a sudden he started probing into my childhood. As we were talking, I realized that the root cause was the event which happened when I was a young child.

 Then my spiritual counselor told me that “the present disturbance is not because of the present happening but a consequential feeling of what happened in your past and even so because  you have sustained and suppressed the guilt and anger till today “

I was confused because people in the spiritual circles have told me that you become a new creation the day when you accept Jesus as your personal savior.  I thought to myself “then how come a thing that has happened in my childhood can affect me so much”. As I was pondering, a question flashed across my mind.

It’s a great thing that you accepted Jesus as your personal savior but have you allowed Jesus to touch and change you????? Or this accepting Jesus was just a one day affair or was it just on the periphery.

Then I realized that the day when I accepted Jesus, he just started the good work in me. But have I allowed Jesus to all the aspects of my life - is it deep enough or is it on the periphery – have I allowed him to the sensitive areas or just the comfortable ones.

I could not believe the fact that I still have so many inner wounds that needs healing. These inner wounds are not only creating unnecessary and harmful emotions but it is depriving me from living a life of fullness.

Finally after all this commotion in my mind, I felt a touch of a gentle breeze and a voice that whispered “I am the lord of your Past, Present and Future”

 Without any delay I made a choice to LET JESUS INSIDE ….. I know my Jesus is capable of healing me and changing me INSIDE OUT. From today onwards I will kneel before the Blessed Sacrament to receive my healing. Once I am touched Inside, I will change outside

 So I urge you friends, Roll down the red Carpet and welcome Jesus to heal you and change you  

JD